Don't speak. Let me in.

(In the Waiting-}
{2003-05-31} {8:33 p.m.}

I have done an assortment of thinking today and its only 8 pm my time. My head hurts and my eyes burn. I have thought of all of the things I have said and done to a lot of people. I guess I do have a way of getting overly attached to people- with out ever meaning to- and when I realize that I have started to become emotionally involved towards someone- I tell them so. I try to be as upfront and honest I can be with so many people-

Maybe I contradict myself and don’t even comprehend it. I have this odd way of not being able to understand a lot of things.

I think that maybe the next time someone tells me that they need space I should do as they say and give them the space that they are much calling for. Never again should I put the pressure on them in thinking that I need them to hold my hand and coddle me like a baby. I am bound with my hands behind my back with flex cuffs.

I just wish I had the chance to make it up to the people I have hurt to show them that I’m not as bad as I am made out to be. People in life make mistakes and I do too- but on the same scale of hurting I learn to move on too. It’s just some people I’d rather not move away from. And you and you and you are one of them.

This time I have learned a valuable lesson- never take anything for granted. You never know how long it will last-

And now I must go. I will finish this post later. Bitch is calling my name.

preventry nextentry