Don't speak. Let me in.

(Advice needed-}
{2003-05-12} {1:32 p.m.}

I won't have time to leave much of an entry today. But I can how ever leave a pasted copy of an email I sent out today asking for some advice
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Hey Michelle.

I'm not the average 33 year old mom most people would think about, or try to relate to. I requested for a review at Iron-reviews about a month ago, I suppose. And rather I have requested reviews before, and have received a bad score; I have never had anyone tell me the things that these two individuals did. I'm not perfect, and I have never pretended to try to be what I am not.

Yet, bewhilst the things the each of these girls said in their review of my private life and what have you; I have never been so publicly emotionally humiliated , or scarred from peoples words before. Especially those of complete strangers.
But, for some weird obsessive reason I can't deem myself to let go of the things that they said towards me as well as making crude comments about my daughter.

Whatever happened to the old phrase "If you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all"? I almost wish I had never requested a review from this site.

I tried really hard not not to let the things they said get to me; I know that they are merely nobodies with a bad vengeance and probably cold hearts; but inside of everyone there is a good quality. I have tried to open my mind and allow myself to see this, but I can't let it go.
I can't imagine ever saying such cruel things to another person, ever. I'm not that way.
As an adult I still have so much more learning and growing up to do. I am always looking to someone for great advice and I found your site on the reviews list today.

I have read some of your diary before, and you have probably read some of mine.
I guess my biggest problem is the comments the 2 girls made in doing the review of my diary towards myself and my childhood. And I am far from being a lesbian, Just because a person picks a certain design for a diary doesn't mean they have to live up to the image of the design. I picked the design because of the dreams I have been having, which are by far very damn confusing to me.

But all in all I would like to know what you have to say in any form of advice for me. In reference to this reviewand this entry I wrote with alot of hard work, because it is my diary and I feel that I should be able to write about anything I want. Please feel free to say anything you like, because today is the day I could use some of the best advice ever. I am sorry that I cannot go into any more detail than I would like. Please read what you can and tell me what I should do to try and let go of the past and the pain I have now because I am truly dieing inside because of the cruleness of those girls words.

Thank you soo much,

Sincerely

Chrissy Carlisle

P.s your link is on reviews page under Advice. All the way down at the bottom.

Thank you so much for your time and effort in helping me get through this. It's very much appreciated.

preventry nextentry