Don't speak. Let me in.

(Moving and such-}
{2003-05-28} {9:28 a.m.}

Today I am moving back in with Lois and the ex husband.

Not because I want to, it’s because I have to. I know that a lot of you are asking yourself why it’s a “have to” situation Well lets just say because it’s court ordered and I have to do as I am told, or I wont get my girls back.

Besides there’s a bright side to the whole thing- The kids are all there so I will get to be closer to them, anyway. This gives me the opportunity to save up my money and all that good jazz.

I won’t be online for a while for those of you who just can’t live without me *ha* I will be online only at night now- because Lois is a monitoring bitch. I think she’s secretly working for the Department of Social Services. Ha. Just thinking of her as a spy kills me- she makes a good one too- because drama just loves to follow her where ever she goes. She's known as the Drama Queen you know.

To Paige, Pamela, Melody, Bonnie, Ali, Lora, Jette, Mary, Brandi, Vanessa, Letti, Jessie, Jenn, Cyndi, Kim, Kat, and so many other people in diaryland I can’t thank you enough for always sharing the laughter and allowing me to be the funny outrageous dumbass I am. You all have seen the real me outside of diaryland. I’m a much more different complex person than what you read in here about me and my life’s situations. I see it as just another notch in my life as I take another step up to better myself. You have given me great pleasure in being myself. Those of you that are more important to me know who you are. I love you all very much.

I know this sounds like a good bye, but trust me it isn’t. It’s just that I won’t be able to be online anymore as much as I used to be. I will be watched and monitored like a person who has no privacy anymore-

But I will be updating every night before I go to bed.

So just buckle your seatbelts; it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

I’m sorry that I have kept everyone in the dark about all of this and it comes as a major shock to those of you who know me best- I usually don’t keep secrets about myself when I talk to you; but I had to just this once. Please don’t hold any harsh ill feelings towards me. Be there for me when I need you the most- this is going to be the hardest thing in the world for me to adjust to.

And, I already know who will be there for me and who won’t. And with that, its enough said.

If you don’t like me anymore because of it I will understand- I’m growing tired of how I used to care about what people on the net say to me- its not important anymore. Just don’t shut me out because of my move and such. I try my best to be there for you and I know you do the same for me- I can't thank you enough for all of the times you have been here for me and made me laugh, smile and cry. It’s been more for me than you will ever realize.

I love you- always

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