(Cruel heartless bitch-}
{2003-04-17} {8:41 a.m.}
Well, this day has just started off splendidly. My caseworker just left, pretty much called me a liar to my face (cunt) told me she didn't believe that my kids could dirty up a house in just one night. Grrr! I told her that she cant make accusations about not knowing because she doesn't live here. I said to her, "Well, you don't know for a fact what they do because you don't live her to see it" And she changed the subject to Heather being down on the corner the other night. Big fucking whoopee! Oh how happy was I to know that she only lived a few blocks from me. Yay fucking yay. Like I was going to do cartwheels for the woman! What did she expect me to do?Jump up n down and shout for joy? I wanted to kick her in the teeth. That arrogant bitch. Ignorance pisses me off so badly, and she gives new meaning to the word. She said that I can't help that I didn't get my money on time, but I can help how my house looks. Of coarse I can and I do try. But damn my kids ...... it's just pointless. They will not listen to me. I can't spank them...I can't do anything and they "know" it. And then she said I had to get rid of my computer. I don't believe I will. And I said something to her about asking the kids why they don't listen to me when I tell them to do something. And she said real nasty like "I'm not asking them, I'm asking you" I wanted to cry! And I still do.
Her words sting and hurt me more than any other things I have ever heard. She is just so I dunno...
ignorant when it comes to knowing about my family. She thinks she knows all and she knows only what she wants to know. She makes me cry... alot.
She tried to throw threats at me about talking to Ben [my ex] Like I'm scared. I have asked for his help, and all he does is yell. I don't want that. And, his own children despise him. How great is that? Ugh! Im' just sooooo pissed off now. I wrote a poem because of her hurting me like she did. It's people like her that drives a person to want to committ suicide! Well, not really but she makes me wish I could stab my own eyes out.
I'm sorry
I'm complaining and be a major whiner. I should go.
Thanks for letting me rant and rave, altho it didn't help any. I won't be happy until I move from this hell hole.
-The End is Nowhere in sight-
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