(Looking at myself -}
{2003-09-06} {12:26 p.m.}
I have looked at myself.. and that's why I see myself the way I do.. nothing is ever going to change it.. I feel that way you know..I wonder what it is that isn't right in me.. I look at myself from day to day... and see scars and a broken heart.. tears and shame.. will I ever be able to change.. do you think I can? Or maybe somewhere I'm hiding and thinking I can't change, or I don't want to.. yes, I do want to. I did before.. didn't I? How is it that it's so easy to slip back into your old form and continue from where you left off instead of trying new things and beginning over? Have I tried so hard and so often that I don't think I can anymore?
Funny how I wish you knew the answers.. strange how I think you do and I still come here
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