Don't speak. Let me in.

(Find me-}
{2003-08-18} {2:15 p.m.}

Ever wondered why the pieces in your life never fit? Ever wondered why you pour all of your efforts into love and wonder why it never is returned to you the same way? Ever wondered if anyone will ever find you so you can find yourself ina different place and time? Ever wondered why you are what you are and why you're here? I do. I wonder all of the time and still find the same answers... nothing.

Just to let you all know I may be coming back here for a little while. I feel that everything I have been feeling needs to be said in this diary. Nothing fits in my other one. I have so much feeling going on inside of me and no where to let it out? I have no one to talk to and I have no one to confide in; no one but my shadow and my lingering thoughts. What am I supposed to do when the only person that understands me is over a million miles away and I can never talk to them even when I do send them emails.. I feel everything that they didnt want to feel... pushed away and left standing alone.. again.

Somehow I knew this was going to happen and everything that I felt before wasnt as real as it should have been. Eveyrhting I do or try is useless. I am so tired of people telling me not to give up and stay strong.... what are you to me? What am I to you? What are we to each other? When you find the answers come and find me...

preventry nextentry