Don't speak. Let me in.

(100 Acre Woods-}
{2003-03-22} {2:03 p.m.}

I was in my room early this morning, just laying there thinking about Synthia again. It amazes me how much I am in love with her. It basically blows me away. I had a dream about her and I and I woke up upset because she wasn’t here with me. How can loving someone soo much hurt just as equally? I don’t like to cry, but I do when I think about her not being here with me.
We had the most awesome talk last night, clear up to 5 am this morning. It was just oOooOOoo. Ahhh. and, Mmmmmm. She is with me everywhere I go. And I mean everywhere. I was at the grocery store with a friend and she was all I could think about. Standing in the dairy section I was thinking of wild passionate things. Imagine that. I was hott all over standing next to a refrigerated isle.[Craziness] My friend saw me drifting off in never never land and asked me what was on my mind and I said Something. And, she said Yes, I can tell. Who is it? I didn't tell her though.
Synthia is my ray of sunshine that filters in through my bedroom window, to my soul. Her image brightens me up every day.
I was thinking about seeing her in April. [Yeah.] Taking that little trip, to see the love of my life. To be able to walk down an unbeaten path with her, holding hands would be the happiest moment ever in my life. Talking about the future. And, so many other things. Spending my time with just her. Holding her and being succumbed by her touch.
We even talked about this last night/ early this morning. I never knew that I could be this happy. Yes I am so much into her. She really is everything. Even from here; she lavishes my heart with all of her beauty. If I could describe my feelings for her I would, but they are so hard to explain. They are just…now! I am sure that’s why I have the dreams that I do. Wanting to be loved and to give away all of the love in my heart to her. It would just be the highlight of my life. I would give up everyone and everything for one moment in time with Synthia. I would hold onto that one moment for the rest of my life.

Ha! And, my dream [he he] well it’s as luscious as all of the others. And, I am sure that you all are wondering what it was about. I have even called this dream 100 Acre Woods. In honor of her place in Georgia. She lives out in the country miles and miles away from everything. Can you just imagine the peacefulness of it all?

We were walking through the woods holding hands and just talking and laughing. Just…everything. And she turned to me and held my face with her hands and looked into my eyes with so much passion and told me so many beautiful things. I felt myself dissolve into her at that very second. And we kissed and held each other for what seemed like infinity. Hearts pounding, becoming breathless I was falling into her. I was taken aback by her simplicity and inner beauty as she led me to a secret place on a well hidden path. It was just soo damn peaceful. It was our time alone. We were laying in each other arms just melting; addicted to each other. I can remember just laying there being so absorbed into her, when out of nowhere she leaned over and kissed me. The fire that coursed through my body was astonishing. She said such sweet things to me as she sang to me. Taking me to a special moment in time. I was craving her and wanting her to do many things to me. I waited and waited until she finally asked me if she could make love to me. I cried beautiful tears of joy. I let her have her way with me as I went into an incredible trance. Spiraling into a dream. I called out her name in ecstasy. She softly kissed my body with her soft lips and sent me into a rage of passion. Hormones raging, holding her close to me I let her take away all of the pain I had from my past. Making love in the hot sun, we just couldn’t get enough. We made love for hours; sweat beading off our bodies I knew I was Heaven. The Image of the two us is etched in my mind forever. I can’t wait until my dreams come true. Amazing. I just know how I feel when I dream about us that way and I am so at peace in my heart and mind. It astounds me even still. Talking about it even makes me breathless as I desire to be with her. I never knew I could be so happy. She has become my burning passion. My endless need for love. Her. Me. Together….forever.
I’m soo in love. Mmmmmmm… and yeah…

Synthia I love you soo oOOooOOoo much. You are the music I could never sing.
-In love-

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