(Missing you-}
{2003-03-21} {9:47 p.m.}
How much can you miss someone? Seems to me to be quiet a bit. Alot actually. I miss Synthia tons and tons. My heart's on fire. When I miss her too much I go back and read all of her emails and convos. She truly is the most breathtaking person I have ever had the opportunity to encounter. Like me; She is from down South. Poor hicks that we shall be. She has such a "comfort-zone" about her. It's just amazing. She lives practically where I did when I was growing up. Poor thing [He he]
I told her 2 days ago that my new entires were going to be about her from here on out, not even realizing that it would be true. I guess that's what happens when you love someone. I will go to sleep after waiting up for hours for her and then wake up from time to time to check my emails to see if I have missed her. And, when I don't see any from her I get pissy a little. Only just a tiny bit tho. It doesn't last long. Because my pissiness turns into sadness, and then my sadness turns into desire and then I am in love all over again. It feels weird to be so happy.
If a hug represented how much I loved you then I would hold you in my arms ...forever
Synthia I was just reading your message to me from earlier today. I don't hate you! Don't you ever say that again That literally made me cry. Broke my heart that you would think that I would hate you. Please promise and I mean PROMISE me you will never say the hate word again. I love you soo much. Please don't ever think that I would hate you. It just isn't going to happen. You know what you mean to me. And I would never hurt you, or turn my back on you. Never ever. And I do know how much you love me. I can't always expect you to be here when I want you to be honey. You are having problems with Daniel. So don't worry so much. I am here when and if you ever need me. All it takes is a buzz or an email from you and you know it. I must go now before I cry, that hurt so much. Just don't ever say it again. Okay? You ARE my magic moment.
-Hurt-
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