(Questions unanswered-}
{2003-03-08} {9:38 p.m.}
At what place and time in your life do you know when youre ready to move on? Do you know the answer? I take the time and look back and reflect on my past. Still I can't find the answer. Please tell me what I'm not able to see. Cause I can't seem to find a trace. It always seems to be the same. In my head my thoughts are deep, but the answers I cannot seek. Sometimes I even get to the point where I can't even speak. At this point this is where I turn my back on everything. Everything changes everywhere I go. It's out of my control. No matter what I know, nothing stays the same.
I wake up everyday aware of my surroundings, yet there is nothing I can think about but my past. I feel I want to make my mark in life but it's not there. How do I take hold? How and when do I know that the opportunity is there? Is there a door open and I can't see it? Trying to find the things you want in life easy. It just is getting there. So when and where do you know? Can you tell me why life is so complicated?
At what place in time how do you make the life you're living a good one? I know deep inside that every moment in life is a miracle. But when does that miracle become something more? I already know that life is everything but ordinary. But somewhere between the lines I want something more than ordinary. I want to let down my defenses. I want to live life and not waste it.
-Chrissi-
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