Don't speak. Let me in.

(Ella}
{2002-10-03} {7:01 p.m.}

Well, I talked to Ella.. she is so sweet. Sometimes, I swear that girl could pass for an adult. She's so intelligent and loves to help just about anybody. She is awesome and has a heart as big as the ocean. Well, anyways I just wanted to share with you the convo we had. The part with her talking with my daughter really touched me..umm yeah.. that be Ella. I really do love her.

Well, here's our convo....

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

hey!

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hello

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

are you asleep?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

lol

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

no lol

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

I just woke up

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

kool

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

been asleep for 4 hours

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

I didnt feel good

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

im tired too lol

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... (asleep) says:

I didnt gto to bed til 4 this morning

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

why?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

crying

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

awww

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

what happened?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

had a hard time sorry

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

its ok

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

nothing happened

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

with what?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I dont know how to desribe it I think its just me

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

its okay hun

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

whats the matter?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

and then I had to go to c my dr today ehh I have to take 2 pills now that 200mgs now Im so sad

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I dont wanna be this be this way

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

everytime I think about me and what I have I just cry

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hun dont put yourself down like that

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

that just makes it so much harder...not easy at all

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I dont have to its just there

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

okay hun i understand...but just don't

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

okay

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I get happy when I think about andrew lol but it only lasts for a lil bit

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

awww whys that?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

cuz hes so far away

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

and he wont talk to me now

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

hes mad at me

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

whys that?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

what happened?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

cuz of the ben thing

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I couldnt help I didnt know he was going to show up

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

right

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

but dont worry about ben...why do you care about him..hes only jealous chrissy and thats all

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

you don't need him back

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

cuz hes prolly ruined the best thing I had

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

sorry what?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

hes prolly ruined what ever I could have had with Drew

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

right

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

:( Oh well

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

its okay hun

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

dont worry

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

you worry so much

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

Im sorry

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

no no dont be

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

but I am cuz Im not ME anymore and I absolutely hate it

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

Im not the person you used to know

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

you are you

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hun thats okay

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

i don't care

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

alot of ppl change

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

and that doesn't mean anything

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

y r u so nice to me?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

why wouldn't i be?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

i don't like being mean to ppl, UNLESS they piss me off

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

oh yeah I know Ive been down that route I will pass on yur temper

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

uh huh

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... HaPpY bIrThDaY aLeX says:

but anyways...

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

don't worry everything is gonna be okay

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

okay... sammi wants to talk to u

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

ok?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

alright...

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

yes

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hey sammi

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

how r u

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

i'm fine and yourself?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

holdin in

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

my mom is cryin wut hppned?

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

thats good

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hun its okay

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

shes just upset

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

shes gonna be okay

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

but she cries all the time

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

its so sad

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

yah i know it is hun

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

and its hard for her

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

but she is gonna be okay dont worry

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I dont really that much I just dont like 2 c her this way

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

i know what you mean

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

and i wouldn't either

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hun...

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

its weird what her medcine does to her

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

she gets so mad sometimes now and yells

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

well dont worry...she is letting all her anger out

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

and i wanna say something to you okay? some advice kinda...

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

well all i wanna say is...you said you can't stand ur mom in the place she is in right now, crying all the time...well all you have to do for her...is be there for her all the time...she is ur mom and she needs you there with her hun...thats all take care of her

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

she needs you to be with her by her side

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

sometimes I cant tho

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

im so busy with stuff

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

yes and i understand what you mean

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

but just do what i said...as much as you possibly can

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I will try

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

thats good

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I have to go n do my h/w now

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hun she needs you

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

alright

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

u wanna talk 2 my mom again

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

give your mom a hug for me

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

yes plz

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

give your mom a hug for me

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I will get her

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

alright

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

thank you

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

hey

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

hello

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

did you get my hug?

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

yes

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

you're so sweet

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

*you're

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

I have a song for u

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

awww

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... says:

okay

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

its called are u sad by olp

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... HaPpY bIrThDaY aLeX says:

i got that song already

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... HaPpY bIrThDaY aLeX says:

lol

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

me like

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... HaPpY bIrThDaY aLeX says:

hehe

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

the part about being faded in the song is how I feel

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... HaPpY bIrThDaY aLeX says:

awww hun

.....Don't look at me in that tone of voice.... says:

so when u listen to it think of me

*E*L*L*A* ...¤Its Never To Late To Say I Love You¤... HaPpY bIrThDaY aLeX says:

of course

The rest I deleted cuz it wasn't important she basically said good bye after that. Ella is special just like all of my friends.. I tend to find myself turning to Ella for comfort more than anyone else tho makes me feel weird. I think it's a bad thing, but then again I don't. I don't know... **sighs**

Well, I'm going to post the song by OLP on here now.. so you will understand, unless you already know it.. and if you don't well then.. yeah...

"Are You Sad?"

Your life has been so hard

It's been dried up angels that can't keep guard

I'm trying to reach your hand

But I'm on fire

I never planned to fade... away

Stay with me

Stop pretending when they say that you're nothing

Are you sad?

Are you holding yourself?

Are you locked in your room?

You shouldn't be..

I'm drowning inside your head

Help me to answer

Help understand

But it's been so long since we talked like friends

Please, forgive me,

I'm just a man

Whose makes mistakes

Are you sad?

Are you holding yourself?

Are you locked in your room?

You shouldn't be..

Schnoodles...

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