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(Heartbreak}
{2002-09-05} {11:57 a.m.}
Here is the email I wrote to her this morning. I just hope she reads it.
Dear Paige,
I can't really put into words what I feel cuz I'm not exactly sure myself. Emotions do funny things to you and tug at your heart forever. I feel like a puppet on a string. Umm yeah I haven't been able to stop thinking about you for almost 2 days now. I want to desperately tell you how sorry I am. But, I guess you either haven't been online, or you have blocked me. I hope you just haven't been online is all. I miss your funnies and oh yeahs (oy) and how you say Good times. You are the funniest person I know.. I know that I am extremely dramatic most of the time and I have more problems than any normal person should.. it sucks to be me. But even with everything consuming my very life.. nothing matters if I don't have my friend in my life. You help me more than you think; you have helped me grow as well. I went for a walk yesterday. And I even went alone..(be proud of your work) all the while thinking about you. I coudn't get you out of my head. Thinking about you made me realize how much you mean to me and what part you play in my life. I can't stop thinking about the stupid poem..the words I used weren't even funny at all. I wasn't setting out to hurt you at all. I am such a bitch. You didn't deserve that at all. I can't say what I want to say and it's frustrating me...err! I am not going to make this all sappy Even tho I am a sappy person when it comes to describing my emotions but I am afraid to pour out my heart and soul to you in fear of it getting crushed..I do love yah Paige I love yah like a sister..I miss you more than you miss me. I know it and I can accept it But still you are my friend and I miss you terribly. I got some weird chick online who wants me to talk dirty to her.. totally makes me feel weird I can't describe it. She calls me gorgeous and stuff .. totally freaking me out
Anyways. I miss you Paigee. Please come back and talk to me. This will be my last email to you I suppose..until I hear from you. I love you as much as my golden heart will give. Hugs.