Don't speak. Let me in.

(Crazy kind of tired}
{2002-09-06} {12:01 p.m.}

Well I crawled into bed at 1:30 a.m. and woke up at 5 a.m ughh I am soo tired. Stayed up most of the night waiting to see if Paige would sign in. (No luck.. so sad without her) I miss her so much.. it's like a piece of my heart has been ripped out. I don't want to be sad but I am...I have the worst luck with friends. I can make them faster than I can keep them. The only real (real life) friend I have is Andrea and even she doesn't feel real anymore. ehh..

I miss my friends when they are gone. It's like I know I love them but when they are gone I realize just how much I truly do love them. I hate losing friends. It makes me feel like the shittiest person in the world. If I could go back to all of the friends I have had over the years I would know exactly what to do and exactly what to say at exactly the right time to make everything perfect. But life as we know isn't perfect.. I guess it never will be.

Well... I finally get to move at the end of this month..yay but not yay I don't want to move to where I have to go. My daughter hates me because of the school change bah What can yah do? She wants to be a cheerleader again this year.. ehh her friend treats her like shit and she comes home upset every other day. I tell her to dump her loser friends ass and she won't listen therefore only leaving her to get hurt more. err! One day she will see.. one day..

In the meantime I met this really cool chick in Winmx chat last night. Her name is Cynthia She says I'm so silly because I said God doesn't waste all of his talent on dumb people. Its true tho you get those stupid people in those chat rooms talking stupid trying to show their intelligence and they come out looking like retards. I mean damn! You can't help but laugh! There we were just sitting there in our own lil chat box instant messaging each other while we were making fun of the stupid people. Oh yeah good times. I find it extremely humourous sometimes to make fun of people when they don't know it because they can't defend themselves. But yah thats kind of mean tho. I have been told I behave like I'm 12.. Oh wells! People like my funny side and I am glad I don't act 32 sometimes. I mean who the fuck wants to be serious all of the time I mean like seriously!

Wow, what happened to my sleepiness? I think it's gone.. but I'm going to make myself go back to sleep anyway..

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