Don't speak. Let me in.

(Thoughts}
{2002-09-04} {11:52 a.m.}

Wow.. People are strange. I have known Andi a sum total of 1 year and yet it feels I have known her my whole life. I miss her sooo much. This past June she moved to St. Louis (My "bud" buddy) I haven't really talked to her since then. She graduated with honors.. lucky her.. she is the sweetest person in the whole world. I felt like every moment I spent with her was like a moment of living in a fantasy. Fun, fun, fun... all of the time. I was never as happy as a person, inside or out til she came into my life. You know how you get that I feel so alone feeling and no one can make me feel complete,and then it's like BOOM.. and, it happens and you don't even realize it. I really miss her.

I was talking to her on MSN just not too long ago and she has really changed. She doesn't seem like the same person she used to be. I send her emails and she's always telling me she doesn't get them.. I am worried about it now.. the last time someone told me that they were actually using me as a game.(altho me and that 1 person have worked everything out and are even closer than ever)..

People are weird.. morals and values, but not really. People claim to think that they are better than everyone else and they really aren't.. oh well... Andi I miss you honey. You gotta come back home..

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